Today is our anniversary. Its crazy to look back at all these years that have passed and think about everything that has happened. 5 years ago if you would have told me that now I'd be engaged and expecting I would have laughed in your face and told you that you were out of your mind. Its funny to see how things happen in our lives and how we either avoid or embrace them. It goes to show you.. things don't always happen as you plan them but they work out in their own way.

With that said enjoy the holidays and be thankful for everything you have. Thank God for your health and family and stop worrying about what you don't have. If its meant to be you will have it in due time.

Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!!

First I would like to say super windy cold winter days suck! lol

Yesterday Omar and I were laying down watching t.v. and Jr. was trying to get comfortable.. I guess to go to sleep.. and it was the most amazing thing. We were both just watching as he moved around in my belly.. kicking and pushing. Once he was comfortable he didn't really move anymore. He must have found a good spot.

I loved seeing the excitement on Omar's face as he watched my stomach pop up and down. Part of it was probably because he hasn't been able to feel him moving much. And actually being able to feel it and see it must have been doubly exciting.

I always thought it was going to feel weird.. and don't get me wrong it does.. but it's also the most indescribable feeling. I guess it's one of those things that you have to experience to be able to fully appreciate and understand. It puts everything into perspective.

Pregnancy is a wonderful time in a woman's life... at times it's exhausting and confusing.. but it's moments like last night that make it wonderful. Now I'm even more excited about meeting him.

Also this weekend Omar once again tried to explain to Nana that there's a baby in my stomach. I was sleeping so I didn't know what was going on and when I felt something touching my stomach I pulled down my shirt. That caused Nana to get upset I guess she felt that I didn't want her to touch me. I mean at 2 years old there are some things that are hard to understand and if you are trying to learn something you don't want to be interrupted. Needless to say I lifted my shirt a bit just so that she could touch me belly and keep trying to comprehend what her Daddy was talking about. I'm sure little by little she will understand especially when she feels him kicking. Hopefully she doesn't get scared by it lol.

So its been awhile since I last wrote and not only is Jr. getting bigger but these hormones are kicking my ass. Did you know a woman's uterus can grow 1000 times its size during pregnancy?? you didn't... well now you know. That's just crazy.

I've noticed that lately I've been very irritable and easily annoyed. If others have noticed I'm sure it sucks as much for them as it sucks for me. It might even suck a little more for me because I'm just not used to feeling like this. I try to control it but there are many people and lots of things they do that don't help at all. Look all I'm saying is that people should be more considerate and conscious about what they do and how it affects the people around them.. not just the pregnant ones lol.

Jr. has been kicking a whole lot lately. He's actually kicking me right now. :) I find myself laughing most of the times that I feel him because... I don't know... just feeling this little person inside of you causes all these different emotions and I guess my way of dealing with them is through laughter.

Sunday, for example, he must have been doing back flips, cartwheels, and jumping jacks all day. The only time he would stop moving was when Omar put his hands on my stomach to try to feel him. But as soon as his hand came off he would start up again. I guess he wore himself out though because he slept pretty much all night. That's a schedule I could get used too lol.

To be honest I prefer the days when he moves around alot as opposed to the days when he doesn't. I guess because I've never experienced pregnancy before I sometimes get scared if I don't feel him moving. It's like the fact that he's moving reassures me that everything's ok. I know it might sound weird but it keeps me from worrying. I better get used to it. I'm sure it doesn't get any easier once he's born.

Last night was, I think, a bit exciting for Omar because he felt the baby move. I've been feeling and seeing his little kicks a lot more. I swear today he was just having a little party of his own in there. I think he still is lol. I know this is just the beginning and I'm sure at some point he'll be driving me crazy but I look forward to every minute of it.

This past week I've been easily frustrated and annoyed. And you know what it's not just because I'm pregnant. It's because of those people who think its cute to tell an emotional pregnant woman "WOW! You're getting so big!". First of all newsflash when there is a whole other person growing inside of you you're going to get bigger. This is a fact I deal with every day. You don't have to keep reminding me. Second of all pregnant or not it's just not nice to tell someone that they are getting big. How would you like it if I told you "WOW! You're fat!"?? You wouldn't like it very much. So what makes you think that I wanna hear it? There are much nicer ways to let an expecting mother know that you are noticing that her body is accommodating to the needs of her unborn child.

There are a few other things annoying me but there's no point dwelling on them. I just needed to vent a little. I just feel like sometimes I try too hard to please and keep others happy. I'm so over it.

Anyway. Lately I've been craving fruits and vegetables so much it's actually kind of annoying. I don't really like chocolate or candy, which I guess it's a good thing. And even though the only kind of ice cream I crave is vanilla bean I don't really want to eat it. It's very confusing when you crave something but at the same time you don't want to eat it.

I'm not as tired as I was my first trimester. And I've got more energy than I did but I still can't do everything I used to be able to do. That's really annoying too. Especially when I want to go out but when it's time to leave I'm ready to go to bed lol.

I guess I just have to take advantage of the times when I have the energy and when I know what I want lol.

I hit 20 weeks Friday (although according to Omar it was on Thursday lol). This means that I'm half way through the pregnancy. It's crazy because these last 5 months went by so quick. I guess it's true what people say.. "Kids grow up so fast".

We are having a BOY!!!!! Let's hope that doctor knows what he's talking about lol...

I'm sleepy. I need a nap. I'll write more later.. ;)

I know it's been about a week since I last wrote so here's an update...

I got engaged on Thursday but I already wrote that.. jut wanted to say it again lol. I haven't been needing as much sleep lately which is good. All I'm craving are fruits and vegetables and steak lol.. My belly is like double the size it was last week and I experienced my first episode of swollen feet. Funny part about it is only my left foot was swollen. It reminded of how Lulu's foot looked when she got her tattoo lol. I guess I'm going to need my pants hemmed so I can wear flats.

Speaking of pants my hadsome fiance lol has been spoiling me since Thursday.. u know a girl can get used that kind of thing lol.

I cut my hair. I don't think it's short but I've heard differently.. lol.

I thought I lost my wallet on Saturday and I was panicking about all the stuff I have in there. I looked everywhere and couldn't find it. When I finally accepted the fact that it was gone I saw it in my living room. Go figure.

And now for the present...

Today is not only Thanksgiving but its Thursday the 27th. That means that tomorrow will be Friday the 28th. Which can only mean one thing.. NO! not that tomorrow is Black Friday and everyone will be shopping lol.. but that we have our ultrasoud appointment and finally get to find out if we are having a boy or a girl. I'm so excited.. I'm trying not to think about it because then the day will go by superslow but I can't help it.

It's a bit nervewracking waiting for tomorrow to come. With every appointment, every little movement, and every new joy of the miracle of pregnancy (a.k.a. symptom) lol the fact that in a few short months we are going to have a new baby becomes more and more real. A fragile totally dependent little being. Someone that will show you unconditional love til he/she is about 12 lol just kidding. That fact is mind boggling. To think that my body right now is helping this little person develop and grow is.. for lack of a better word.. crazy.

I can not wait til tomorrow. Actually there's a list of people that can't wait. People who I've been instructed to make aware of the baby's sex as soon as I enter the hospital. Unfortunately for tem they are going to have to be even more patient. Especially if Baby wants to be stubborn. Which from my experience is a very likely possibility.

Well I'm going to make breakfast/brunch now lol.. Happy Thanksgiving!!

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol.

Just thought I'd share. And yes I did cry. lol.

I'm extremely anxious and getting impatient. It needs to be next week already so we can find out what we are having lol.. I have to admit waiting is the hardest part about being pregnant but at the same time the wait is necessary.

A couple of weeks ago, even though I knew I was pregnant I don't think I had fully grasped the concept. Now that I've been feeling the Baby more often I think it's finally hit me. Having a son or daughter means you are now responsible for another life. A lot of people take their own lives for granted so imagine how nerve-wracking it is to realize that you will soon be responsible for someone else's. Sounds a bit traumatizing lol. That is why this time is so important.

During pregnancy you get to bond with your Baby even though you can't look him/her in the eyes. You realize that inside of you is a wonderful little person waiting to meet you and love you. You start wondering how much your life will change and you welcome that change. And even though you might be scared out of your mind, because you know that what you do from now on will impact that Baby's life forever, you realize it's not that bad. Being a parent is a blessing and you are reminded of that with every little movement, every symptom (lol), every thought of your new life. It's an exciting journey and although at times I've thought "I'm not ready for this", I know I am.

Anyway. Enough with the insightful, philosophical stuff lol. I've been feeling more movement lately. Mostly at night. Omar's been trying to feel it too but I'm not sure he knows what to look for. I like when he does that. I don't know, I guess it makes me feel how excited he is and how much he cares.

Whoops! Let's not get mushy. So yea like I said I can't wait til next week!! lol

Although I'm not feeling so great today which means I probably won't write much, I was right. What I felt was the Baby moving lol. I felt it again today.

It's pretty amazing. Only this time it was not the poking I felt before, this time it was moving against my belly.. like pushing with its whole body. It kinda tickled in a weird way.

Anyway. I can't wait til we know what it is so i can stop calling my Baby an "it". lol...

Ok. that's it for today.. Maybe tomorrow there will be more. ;)

17 weeks in a nutshell... Maybe lol

At 17 weeks and 2 days, with inspiration from my baby dad (lol) I decided to start a blog. I'm not big on keeping journals and the like but I thought it would be fun to document the rest of the making of my baby lol....

So here it goes... Although I'm looking forward to meeting my baby face to face in April, pregnancy has not been nice to me. You know how people always talk about morning sickness and maybe they will mention back pain?? Well you think the worse that could happen is that you'll have morning sickness at random times. What they fail to inform you about is the fact that you can have morning sickness all day every day for 14 weeks and that it doesn't really go away, that the back pain will be accompanied by headaches and "growing pains", nasal congestion, the fact that you are tired all the time but can't sleep througout the night, and that your body can't fight off anything because your immune system isn't very strong anymore. Yea those great and wonderful things you get to find out on your own and the best part is no meds just Tylenol.. the original, plain, regular strength stuff.

LOL ok now that i got that out of my system.. here goes the good stuff.

I'm due April 24th, which just so happens to be the birthdate of my child's future godmother's son. My boyfriend Omar (who will maybe someday post on here lol) and I are impatiently waiting for November 28th. Why? Because this is the day that we will hopefully find out what we are having. It's not a big secret that we want a baby boy but we will be happy with whatever God decides to give us.

Yesterday we tried to kind of explain that there's a baby in my belly to Omar's youngest and she just laughed. I guess its hard to understand the phrase "there's a baby in there" when you are not even 2 yet. It was cute though.

I do think I felt the baby last night though. Since I'm not really showing yet I can still lay on my stomach so as we (Omar, Nana, and me) were painting our christmas tree ornaments I laid on my stomach just because it was more comfortable for me. As I was working on the santa clause ornament i felt 4 little "kicks" against my stomach. They kind of felt like if I was being poked by a finger.. inside my belly. Maybe the baby was telling me that I shouldn't lay on my stomach so I turned on my side. I wanna try it again just to see if I feel something. If I do then I'll be sure lol.

I'll let you know what happens lol...