Today is our anniversary. Its crazy to look back at all these years that have passed and think about everything that has happened. 5 years ago if you would have told me that now I'd be engaged and expecting I would have laughed in your face and told you that you were out of your mind. Its funny to see how things happen in our lives and how we either avoid or embrace them. It goes to show you.. things don't always happen as you plan them but they work out in their own way.

With that said enjoy the holidays and be thankful for everything you have. Thank God for your health and family and stop worrying about what you don't have. If its meant to be you will have it in due time.

Merry Christmas! Happy New Year!!

First I would like to say super windy cold winter days suck! lol

Yesterday Omar and I were laying down watching t.v. and Jr. was trying to get comfortable.. I guess to go to sleep.. and it was the most amazing thing. We were both just watching as he moved around in my belly.. kicking and pushing. Once he was comfortable he didn't really move anymore. He must have found a good spot.

I loved seeing the excitement on Omar's face as he watched my stomach pop up and down. Part of it was probably because he hasn't been able to feel him moving much. And actually being able to feel it and see it must have been doubly exciting.

I always thought it was going to feel weird.. and don't get me wrong it does.. but it's also the most indescribable feeling. I guess it's one of those things that you have to experience to be able to fully appreciate and understand. It puts everything into perspective.

Pregnancy is a wonderful time in a woman's life... at times it's exhausting and confusing.. but it's moments like last night that make it wonderful. Now I'm even more excited about meeting him.

Also this weekend Omar once again tried to explain to Nana that there's a baby in my stomach. I was sleeping so I didn't know what was going on and when I felt something touching my stomach I pulled down my shirt. That caused Nana to get upset I guess she felt that I didn't want her to touch me. I mean at 2 years old there are some things that are hard to understand and if you are trying to learn something you don't want to be interrupted. Needless to say I lifted my shirt a bit just so that she could touch me belly and keep trying to comprehend what her Daddy was talking about. I'm sure little by little she will understand especially when she feels him kicking. Hopefully she doesn't get scared by it lol.

So its been awhile since I last wrote and not only is Jr. getting bigger but these hormones are kicking my ass. Did you know a woman's uterus can grow 1000 times its size during pregnancy?? you didn't... well now you know. That's just crazy.

I've noticed that lately I've been very irritable and easily annoyed. If others have noticed I'm sure it sucks as much for them as it sucks for me. It might even suck a little more for me because I'm just not used to feeling like this. I try to control it but there are many people and lots of things they do that don't help at all. Look all I'm saying is that people should be more considerate and conscious about what they do and how it affects the people around them.. not just the pregnant ones lol.

Jr. has been kicking a whole lot lately. He's actually kicking me right now. :) I find myself laughing most of the times that I feel him because... I don't know... just feeling this little person inside of you causes all these different emotions and I guess my way of dealing with them is through laughter.

Sunday, for example, he must have been doing back flips, cartwheels, and jumping jacks all day. The only time he would stop moving was when Omar put his hands on my stomach to try to feel him. But as soon as his hand came off he would start up again. I guess he wore himself out though because he slept pretty much all night. That's a schedule I could get used too lol.

To be honest I prefer the days when he moves around alot as opposed to the days when he doesn't. I guess because I've never experienced pregnancy before I sometimes get scared if I don't feel him moving. It's like the fact that he's moving reassures me that everything's ok. I know it might sound weird but it keeps me from worrying. I better get used to it. I'm sure it doesn't get any easier once he's born.

Last night was, I think, a bit exciting for Omar because he felt the baby move. I've been feeling and seeing his little kicks a lot more. I swear today he was just having a little party of his own in there. I think he still is lol. I know this is just the beginning and I'm sure at some point he'll be driving me crazy but I look forward to every minute of it.

This past week I've been easily frustrated and annoyed. And you know what it's not just because I'm pregnant. It's because of those people who think its cute to tell an emotional pregnant woman "WOW! You're getting so big!". First of all newsflash when there is a whole other person growing inside of you you're going to get bigger. This is a fact I deal with every day. You don't have to keep reminding me. Second of all pregnant or not it's just not nice to tell someone that they are getting big. How would you like it if I told you "WOW! You're fat!"?? You wouldn't like it very much. So what makes you think that I wanna hear it? There are much nicer ways to let an expecting mother know that you are noticing that her body is accommodating to the needs of her unborn child.

There are a few other things annoying me but there's no point dwelling on them. I just needed to vent a little. I just feel like sometimes I try too hard to please and keep others happy. I'm so over it.

Anyway. Lately I've been craving fruits and vegetables so much it's actually kind of annoying. I don't really like chocolate or candy, which I guess it's a good thing. And even though the only kind of ice cream I crave is vanilla bean I don't really want to eat it. It's very confusing when you crave something but at the same time you don't want to eat it.

I'm not as tired as I was my first trimester. And I've got more energy than I did but I still can't do everything I used to be able to do. That's really annoying too. Especially when I want to go out but when it's time to leave I'm ready to go to bed lol.

I guess I just have to take advantage of the times when I have the energy and when I know what I want lol.

I hit 20 weeks Friday (although according to Omar it was on Thursday lol). This means that I'm half way through the pregnancy. It's crazy because these last 5 months went by so quick. I guess it's true what people say.. "Kids grow up so fast".