Parents always tell you that having a child changes your life. It's not about you anymore but about your baby. They tell you that now your life consists of loving them and doing everything possible to make sure they have everything they need. Parents also tell you how much you will worry about where your child is, who they are with, what they are doing, where they are going, and if they are safe. They also say that until you are a parent yourself you won't be able to understand what it feels like.

What I didn't realize was that the loving, providing, and worrying starts the moment you understand the fact that you are about to be that parent. The parent that is going to cry when she has to leave her baby for the first time because she has to go back to work, the parent that is going to freak out when her baby falls, the parent who will stay up all night wondering how her baby's first night away is going.

It hit me the other night when I had what was probably the most horrible dream I've ever had in my life. That dream made me realize how real all of this is. It was the type of dream from which you wake up so emotional that you pray to God to make sure his blessings come your way and that you have to hold your tears back and keep reminding yourself that it was all a dream.. or in this case a nightmare.

This is the feeling that brings on the anxiety, nervousness, and just that all around Oh Sh*t I'm having a Baby!! feeling.

You know what though.. it's a great feeling..

Let's just hope that dream isn't recurring lol.