I am officially 9 months into my pregnancy since yesterday and I'm excited, anxious, nervous, and a little scared. A couple days ago I had a little teeny tiny panic "attack". For some reason I started to think about everything that could possibly go wrong while giving birth. It's pretty traumatizing to think that something could happen to your Baby as he's coming into this world. I guess it's normal to think about just because you want everything to be perfect. The little panic attacks suck but whats worse are the things that cross your mind everyday. You know the things that are more likely to go wrong. And it doesn't help that people think its ok to tell you stories of things that have gone wrong with other people's labors. The last thing I need to hear is that.. well anything bad.

Anyway. This past week I've been in pain, and sore all over. Everyone keeps telling me it's normal and that the pain I'm feeling is nothing compared to labor pains. Obviously I know labor pains are bad but understand that I'm in pain right now... I'm sore... I can barely walk and I don't sleep so don't try to make me feel like I'm making it up and if I'm not complaining to you don't offer your 2 cents because they are not wanted.

Maybe you've realized that I've been extremely irritable lately and you're right. It's just a lot of little things that have been building up and now that I'm in constant pain and just exhausted all around it's hard to not react to things that normally wouldn't matter but are just completely unnecessary at this point in time.

I just want my son to be born. Don't get me wrong I love being pregnant and I know I'm going to miss it but I'm... I don't know I'm just tired. Plus I can't wait to hold little man and kiss him and just have him next to me. I know the time is coming soon and i can feel myself getting more and more nervous but I know everything's going to be ok.

So we had a little scare yesterday. I had to go to labor and delivery to get checked because we were in a bit of a car accident Thursday. Just for the record yes I was driving but it wasn't my fault. Now with that cleared up I called my Dr. yesterday to let him know and he told me that I needed to go get checked and make sure everything was ok with the baby.

When we got to L&D I was glad because they took care of me right away. They did a whole bunch of tests, hooked me up to machines and just waited. They ended up telling me that they were going to keep me until 6pm. Mind you we got there at like 11am. Anyway after an ultrasound we were told that my amniotic fluid was low so they gave me fluids through an IV. Now I have to drink even more water than I already drink and we have to go back Wednesday to see if the levels have gone up. If not Jr.s coming early :)

While we were at the hospital there was a woman having contractions and i know its not funny because they are painful but I couldn't help but laugh lol just because that'll be me soon. Woohoo lol.

I can't wait.. I know I say that all the time but I'm excited. Plus I'm getting so uncomfortable now. I barely sleep, my legs and feet are swollen all the time and the Dr. told me to stay off my feet which will be difficult to do for the simple fact that while giving a presentation you are not supposed to sit. These next couple of weeks are going to be interesting.

As for Jr... he is 4 pounds 11 ounces so far. He loves pushing my belly all crazy and kicks my ribs and hip bones for fun. I can't be mad at him though because its pretty tight in there and I'm sure he gets bored lol.

Well off I go to drink more water lol.

At 32 weeks I've realized that my child is running out of room in there lol. Well maybe he's not but it sure feels like it. He now spends his days and nights kicking every inch of my midsection. He especially loves double teaming my ribs. Another fascinating little tidbit about pregnancy.. once you hit your 8th month (at least for me anyway) you learn to live on 3 hours of sleep a night and that's 3 if your lucky. I guess it'll come in handy once the baby is here and asking for milk at 2 4 6 in the morning lol.

We bought Jr. 2 onesies yesterday that i absolutely love. One says My heart belongs to Mommy (duh lol) and the other one says Daddy is my Hero. It was a give and take lol. I just love all the baby stuff at stores. These people know girls are suckers for cute stuff especially when its for a baby lol. They don't play fair lol.

So i think i'm just extremely excited about my baby shower even though they refuse to tell me when it is because i had a dream that I got to open my gifts early lol. I have to say though I am very proud of myself because the lovely Godmother of my child sent me the evite to the baby shower and as tempted as I was to look at it I deleted it lol. Good Job Jenny lmao.

I really can't wait to meet Jr. I'm not saying I'm looking forward to those great labor pains but I am looking forward to holding my little miracle in my arms and giving him tons of kisses lol.

We joined a gym recently and I really think it's great because it keeps me more active and i feel like it'll help alot when the time comes to pop this baby out lol.

Little man is not letting me breathe right now.. I think I need to walk around. :)