I am officially 9 months into my pregnancy since yesterday and I'm excited, anxious, nervous, and a little scared. A couple days ago I had a little teeny tiny panic "attack". For some reason I started to think about everything that could possibly go wrong while giving birth. It's pretty traumatizing to think that something could happen to your Baby as he's coming into this world. I guess it's normal to think about just because you want everything to be perfect. The little panic attacks suck but whats worse are the things that cross your mind everyday. You know the things that are more likely to go wrong. And it doesn't help that people think its ok to tell you stories of things that have gone wrong with other people's labors. The last thing I need to hear is that.. well anything bad.

Anyway. This past week I've been in pain, and sore all over. Everyone keeps telling me it's normal and that the pain I'm feeling is nothing compared to labor pains. Obviously I know labor pains are bad but understand that I'm in pain right now... I'm sore... I can barely walk and I don't sleep so don't try to make me feel like I'm making it up and if I'm not complaining to you don't offer your 2 cents because they are not wanted.

Maybe you've realized that I've been extremely irritable lately and you're right. It's just a lot of little things that have been building up and now that I'm in constant pain and just exhausted all around it's hard to not react to things that normally wouldn't matter but are just completely unnecessary at this point in time.

I just want my son to be born. Don't get me wrong I love being pregnant and I know I'm going to miss it but I'm... I don't know I'm just tired. Plus I can't wait to hold little man and kiss him and just have him next to me. I know the time is coming soon and i can feel myself getting more and more nervous but I know everything's going to be ok.