On Easter Sunday, April 12, 2009 Omar Jr. was born at 11:05 a.m. He is soooo cute. I know all parents say that about their kids but I'm serious lol. He is such a good baby and loves to eat. I've decided to breastfeed and you know what it's exhausting lol but I wouldn't change it for the world.

The moment he was born it was like instant love... but I think it was just all the love thats been building up over the past 9 months.. all of the feelings that have been accumulating all this time.. all those emotions just exploded the minute I held him in my arms. It's amazing. You know you love someone when you can't stop looking at them. There's very few people in this world who make me feel this way.

The part that is not so great is the whole recovery after labor. O yeah epidural.. amazing!! lol. Also my hormones are still all screwed up. I'm so unnecessarily emotional. I hate it lol. I can't wait to be fully recovered so that I can really be able to move around and do stuff. I feel so... I don't know.. just.. ugh.

Anyway. Jr. was born weighing 5 pounds 10 ounces and 18 inches long. He is so tiny. He is so small he doesn't even fit in preemie clothes lol. At first I didn't know what to do with him lol. I'd never held a baby that small. Now I find it so hard to let him go. Being a mom is such a crazy feeling. I worry about everything.. about if he's hot, cold, hungry, wet, tired, comfortable, if he's breathing ok, is the t.v. too loud, should I open the windows or close them. Geez lol. It's so much but I love it.

Nana met Jr this weekend. It's cute to see her trying to interact with the baby. she gives him kisses and meks sure he's ok when he cries. She tries to figure out how breastfeeding works lol. I can't wait to see the kids growing up together.

As for Omar Sr. lol I love him. He's been such great help this week.. cleaning up, making sure I eat, staying up with Jr so that I can get some rest. I love both my Omar's. I'm really going to hate when he goes back to work.

Saturday April 4th 2009 was my baby shower. I have to admit I was surprised. I was looking forward to watching Monsters v. Aliens but I was very happy with the change of plans lol.

I must say I LOVE my Fiance. He's great. He made me cry at my Baby Shower.. Jerk! lol just kidding. I just want to thank him for flying my Dad all the way from P.R. to surprise me. I know how stressed he was over the baby shower.. I cant believe he was able to play it off all day. U got me Baby lol. I LOVE U!

My shower was great. Jr. got sooooo much stuff which is great because that means we are going to have a break when it comes to having to buy everything or anything for a while. So thanks everybody!! I had fun even though it felt like the time went by so quick. I'm glad Nana was there. She was a little shy at first but she had fun once she got used to all the people. I love her. She's great. How cute is it when a 2 year old helps pick up the wrapping paper and tissue paper from the gifts your opening and throws it in the trash. Que Linda!!

You know what else she did that was adorable.. She knows that her baby brother is in my belly so Saturday I asked her where her baby brother was and she touched my belly with both hands, then I told her to give him a kiss and she did, then I asked her if she loves him and she shook her head yes.. I hope it'll be easy for her to adjust to the baby.. I know it'll be hard but she's a good baby and she'll be a great big sister.

So I'm still in constant pain. I'm currently 2cm dilated and Jr. is in position and ready to go. His head, I was told, is extremely low and since I passed my plug the Dr. said it should be any day now. They are concerned about pre-eclampsia so if I haven't had Jr. by Wednesday and I test positive for a specific protein they will have to induce, which is fine with me lol. I want to meet my Baby already.

I know having a newborn, a child, is not easy but if it was impossible none of us would be here.. so yes I'm nervous but I'm also ready.

I get annoyed at how people make it sound like having kids is so horrible and dificult and tiring. Having a child is a blessing and they need to stop trying to make me feel like I'm not going to be ready.

I forgot wat I was going to write.. damn relaxin!! lol