Baby's grow up soooooo fast... A little too fast if you ask me :( I feel like Little Man will be a man in no time. He's so alert and husky. He loves to talk and stand... and he's only 3 & 1/2 months old.

And I think he's teething already!!! I have to look that up. Hold on...

Okay I'm back lol so it turns out baby's can start teething as early as 3 months old. Some of the symptoms associated with teething which Little Man is now showing are drooling, fussiness, irritability, trouble sleeping at night, and biting.

It's so heartbreaking to see my Baby in pain and frustrated and me not being able to do anything about it. Ugh!! I need to get him Humphrey's. They've never failed us lol.

Tomorrow I am going to see this lady about day care. It's hard to have to leave your Baby with a complete stranger and hope that they will treat him good. Hopefully everything turns out good and the whole arrangement works out. Unfortunately time's are tough.. you know since the economy sucks lol.. and it is necessary.. We can't all stay home lol.

My Baby is too cute. I need to figure out how to upload pictures on this thing... If I only had the time lol..

Being a Mommy is all about multitasking to the 100th power lol.. At least you can't ever really say your bored and actually mean it. For example as I type this post Little Man is asleep on my chest. He just fell asleep so i have to give him some time before I put him down.. if I don't he will wake up and either throw a fit or want to play. That's definitely based on luck lol.

So I was at an event for work in a local correctional facility and after seeing and speaking to many of the inmates i can say that I realized how grateful I am to have the life I have and that I Love it. As an inmate you are taken away from everything you know and everyone you love.. your home, children, family, friends.. and its a real shame to hear how so many of them ended up there because of someone else. We need to give thanks for all the great things in our lives because in the grand scheme of things the little things that annoy us are most of that time not even worth stressing over.

Ok so I just had a space out moment lol that's what happens when all your free time is spent thinking about absolutely everything.. your brain just needs a break every once in a while whether you like it or not lol.

Anyway.. We have come across the "Day Care Dilemma".. and let me tell you it sucks!!!!! If you have the option of staying home with your child please do it... being at work once you have been approved to enter Mommy World is sooooooo hard lol. Chances are you will get emotional and noone will ever be good enough to take care of your baby. P.s. that feeling never goes away. Hopefully things work out for the best and we pick a place that will be great for him.

Day Care Hints:
Ask about certification
How many other kids are being taken care of there
If they've had any emergencies and what has been done
How they feel about unannounced visits by parents
Whether they provide meals
Ask for a tour of the facility so you can see what everything looks like for yourself
**Remember this is where your Baby will spend the majority of every day until he starts school, theres nothing wrong with asking questions.
The last thing you want is to feel that your little ray of sunshine is not safe.
And if your child has any special needs make sure the workers are aware of the situation and that they are capable of handling it.

Ugh my Baby... We shall see what happens very soon.. Oh yeah make sure you discuss payment amount and set up a payment schedule.. don't be afraid to accept that times are tough and we need to be more aware and careful of how we spend.

Enjoy it all!!! Be Happy and Love!

Since my last blog post my Little Man has Grown soo much. He is now 3 months old and the light in my life. I'm back at work and stopped breastfeeding about two weeks ago. The weaning process has been interesting. It's funny because he still tries to latch on and when he can't he tries to suck his thumb instead. As mean as it sounds I don't let him lol. I just don't want him to grow up to be one of those adults who still suck their thumbs. That's not sexy lol. He won't take a bobo which is great I think... although sometimes I try to give it to him if everything else I've tried doesn't work to calm him down.

My Baby is great though. He loves to smile, play, and "talk". We used to stay up all night and have conversations.. ok maybe not all night but from about 2 to 4 in the morning and then again from about 5:30 to 6a.m. It took him a bit to get on a 2 hour schedule. That was tough especially since during the day I wasn't getting any sleep. As a new mom you get extremely paranoid about everything. I must have checked his breathing like 500 times a day(that might not be an exxageration lol). Now he sleeps from 9:30p.m. to about 6a.m. Sometimes he wakes up for a bottle but its rare.

The hardest thing about the past 3 months has not been the negative amounts of sleep, or the fact that my body will never be the same again lol the hardest thing was going back to work. When I made the decision to return to my check lol I will admit I cried... I held Little Man and just cried. I'm ok with it now but I guess that's because my wonderful sister has been taking care of him during the day. She's a great help. The challenge now will be what to do about child care at the end of the summer when she goes back to school. Ugh.. si no es una cosa es otra!! (translation: if it's not one thing it's another lol)

At 3 months old Nene (Little Man) has his very own personality. And boy does he have a temper. He likes to watch t.v. , talk, play, take a bath, dance, and thinks he can stand already lol. He has a lot of hair and the unny thing is it naturally goes to the right. His hair came styled right out of the womb. He's gotten chunky but he's short... although he is husky... he looks like a little bodybuilder lol.

Oh I gotta go be a wife lol

Being a mother is both the most amazing and the most exhausting thing ever!!! lol but I wouldn't trade it for anything in the universe. My baby is beautiful and loves his mommy so much :)

On Thursday he finally got his cute belly button lol.. and he finally fits in Newborn clothes and diapers almost perfectly. Sure he's about to be a month old on Sunday but you know what, he just doesn't want to out grow his clothes too fast that's all lol.

I decided to breastfeed and let me tell you.. it is not easy by any means. It better be true what they say about how breastfeeding helps you lose the weight faster because my sore parts are not loving it lol. But I put up with it because it is the healthiest thing for my Baby. I am glad my thoughtful fiance got me a breast pump because drinking from a bottle fills Jr a lot faster than when he has to do all the work.

I can't wait until my body is back to normal though. It sucks when you can't do things the way you used to. It's even harder because now you also have a baby to look after. I will be patient though..

On another note... I really don't want to go back to work lol.. Don't get me wrong I like to work and be able to contribute but I don't want to leave my Baby. I don't think 6 weeks is enough. I mean to think that you're 6 week old baby will be the responsibility of some stranger for the greater part of the day is an extremely frightening thought. You never know what people are capable of doing or if they will care for your child how they should. UGH!! I don't even like thinking about it.....

On Easter Sunday, April 12, 2009 Omar Jr. was born at 11:05 a.m. He is soooo cute. I know all parents say that about their kids but I'm serious lol. He is such a good baby and loves to eat. I've decided to breastfeed and you know what it's exhausting lol but I wouldn't change it for the world.

The moment he was born it was like instant love... but I think it was just all the love thats been building up over the past 9 months.. all of the feelings that have been accumulating all this time.. all those emotions just exploded the minute I held him in my arms. It's amazing. You know you love someone when you can't stop looking at them. There's very few people in this world who make me feel this way.

The part that is not so great is the whole recovery after labor. O yeah epidural.. amazing!! lol. Also my hormones are still all screwed up. I'm so unnecessarily emotional. I hate it lol. I can't wait to be fully recovered so that I can really be able to move around and do stuff. I feel so... I don't know.. just.. ugh.

Anyway. Jr. was born weighing 5 pounds 10 ounces and 18 inches long. He is so tiny. He is so small he doesn't even fit in preemie clothes lol. At first I didn't know what to do with him lol. I'd never held a baby that small. Now I find it so hard to let him go. Being a mom is such a crazy feeling. I worry about everything.. about if he's hot, cold, hungry, wet, tired, comfortable, if he's breathing ok, is the t.v. too loud, should I open the windows or close them. Geez lol. It's so much but I love it.

Nana met Jr this weekend. It's cute to see her trying to interact with the baby. she gives him kisses and meks sure he's ok when he cries. She tries to figure out how breastfeeding works lol. I can't wait to see the kids growing up together.

As for Omar Sr. lol I love him. He's been such great help this week.. cleaning up, making sure I eat, staying up with Jr so that I can get some rest. I love both my Omar's. I'm really going to hate when he goes back to work.

Saturday April 4th 2009 was my baby shower. I have to admit I was surprised. I was looking forward to watching Monsters v. Aliens but I was very happy with the change of plans lol.

I must say I LOVE my Fiance. He's great. He made me cry at my Baby Shower.. Jerk! lol just kidding. I just want to thank him for flying my Dad all the way from P.R. to surprise me. I know how stressed he was over the baby shower.. I cant believe he was able to play it off all day. U got me Baby lol. I LOVE U!

My shower was great. Jr. got sooooo much stuff which is great because that means we are going to have a break when it comes to having to buy everything or anything for a while. So thanks everybody!! I had fun even though it felt like the time went by so quick. I'm glad Nana was there. She was a little shy at first but she had fun once she got used to all the people. I love her. She's great. How cute is it when a 2 year old helps pick up the wrapping paper and tissue paper from the gifts your opening and throws it in the trash. Que Linda!!

You know what else she did that was adorable.. She knows that her baby brother is in my belly so Saturday I asked her where her baby brother was and she touched my belly with both hands, then I told her to give him a kiss and she did, then I asked her if she loves him and she shook her head yes.. I hope it'll be easy for her to adjust to the baby.. I know it'll be hard but she's a good baby and she'll be a great big sister.

So I'm still in constant pain. I'm currently 2cm dilated and Jr. is in position and ready to go. His head, I was told, is extremely low and since I passed my plug the Dr. said it should be any day now. They are concerned about pre-eclampsia so if I haven't had Jr. by Wednesday and I test positive for a specific protein they will have to induce, which is fine with me lol. I want to meet my Baby already.

I know having a newborn, a child, is not easy but if it was impossible none of us would be here.. so yes I'm nervous but I'm also ready.

I get annoyed at how people make it sound like having kids is so horrible and dificult and tiring. Having a child is a blessing and they need to stop trying to make me feel like I'm not going to be ready.

I forgot wat I was going to write.. damn relaxin!! lol

I am officially 9 months into my pregnancy since yesterday and I'm excited, anxious, nervous, and a little scared. A couple days ago I had a little teeny tiny panic "attack". For some reason I started to think about everything that could possibly go wrong while giving birth. It's pretty traumatizing to think that something could happen to your Baby as he's coming into this world. I guess it's normal to think about just because you want everything to be perfect. The little panic attacks suck but whats worse are the things that cross your mind everyday. You know the things that are more likely to go wrong. And it doesn't help that people think its ok to tell you stories of things that have gone wrong with other people's labors. The last thing I need to hear is that.. well anything bad.

Anyway. This past week I've been in pain, and sore all over. Everyone keeps telling me it's normal and that the pain I'm feeling is nothing compared to labor pains. Obviously I know labor pains are bad but understand that I'm in pain right now... I'm sore... I can barely walk and I don't sleep so don't try to make me feel like I'm making it up and if I'm not complaining to you don't offer your 2 cents because they are not wanted.

Maybe you've realized that I've been extremely irritable lately and you're right. It's just a lot of little things that have been building up and now that I'm in constant pain and just exhausted all around it's hard to not react to things that normally wouldn't matter but are just completely unnecessary at this point in time.

I just want my son to be born. Don't get me wrong I love being pregnant and I know I'm going to miss it but I'm... I don't know I'm just tired. Plus I can't wait to hold little man and kiss him and just have him next to me. I know the time is coming soon and i can feel myself getting more and more nervous but I know everything's going to be ok.

So we had a little scare yesterday. I had to go to labor and delivery to get checked because we were in a bit of a car accident Thursday. Just for the record yes I was driving but it wasn't my fault. Now with that cleared up I called my Dr. yesterday to let him know and he told me that I needed to go get checked and make sure everything was ok with the baby.

When we got to L&D I was glad because they took care of me right away. They did a whole bunch of tests, hooked me up to machines and just waited. They ended up telling me that they were going to keep me until 6pm. Mind you we got there at like 11am. Anyway after an ultrasound we were told that my amniotic fluid was low so they gave me fluids through an IV. Now I have to drink even more water than I already drink and we have to go back Wednesday to see if the levels have gone up. If not Jr.s coming early :)

While we were at the hospital there was a woman having contractions and i know its not funny because they are painful but I couldn't help but laugh lol just because that'll be me soon. Woohoo lol.

I can't wait.. I know I say that all the time but I'm excited. Plus I'm getting so uncomfortable now. I barely sleep, my legs and feet are swollen all the time and the Dr. told me to stay off my feet which will be difficult to do for the simple fact that while giving a presentation you are not supposed to sit. These next couple of weeks are going to be interesting.

As for Jr... he is 4 pounds 11 ounces so far. He loves pushing my belly all crazy and kicks my ribs and hip bones for fun. I can't be mad at him though because its pretty tight in there and I'm sure he gets bored lol.

Well off I go to drink more water lol.

At 32 weeks I've realized that my child is running out of room in there lol. Well maybe he's not but it sure feels like it. He now spends his days and nights kicking every inch of my midsection. He especially loves double teaming my ribs. Another fascinating little tidbit about pregnancy.. once you hit your 8th month (at least for me anyway) you learn to live on 3 hours of sleep a night and that's 3 if your lucky. I guess it'll come in handy once the baby is here and asking for milk at 2 4 6 in the morning lol.

We bought Jr. 2 onesies yesterday that i absolutely love. One says My heart belongs to Mommy (duh lol) and the other one says Daddy is my Hero. It was a give and take lol. I just love all the baby stuff at stores. These people know girls are suckers for cute stuff especially when its for a baby lol. They don't play fair lol.

So i think i'm just extremely excited about my baby shower even though they refuse to tell me when it is because i had a dream that I got to open my gifts early lol. I have to say though I am very proud of myself because the lovely Godmother of my child sent me the evite to the baby shower and as tempted as I was to look at it I deleted it lol. Good Job Jenny lmao.

I really can't wait to meet Jr. I'm not saying I'm looking forward to those great labor pains but I am looking forward to holding my little miracle in my arms and giving him tons of kisses lol.

We joined a gym recently and I really think it's great because it keeps me more active and i feel like it'll help alot when the time comes to pop this baby out lol.

Little man is not letting me breathe right now.. I think I need to walk around. :)

Today was a wonderfully amazing day. We went to get the baby's 3-D and 4-D ultrasound. All i have to say is my Baby is the cutest chubby cheeked baby in the world lol. But seriously this thing is amazing. We got 3-d pictures and a dvd of the whole session.

Jr., we learned today, is a bit stubborn. He kept hiding his face with his hands and kept trying to suck his thumb. He better not get used to that because that is not cute lol.

Apparently not only is my placenta in the way but I don't have a lot of amniotic fluid. And yes I do drink water! Because of this it was difficult to get good clear pictures but the ones we got came out really good. If I knew how to upload them on here I would but I have no clue how lol.

The dvd is the most amazing thing because you get to watch as your baby moves inside you. Of course Jr. would pick those specific 20 minutes to take a nap. Had it been any other time he would have been kicking up a storm.. kinda like hes doing right now lol.

I'm happy we did this because I feel it helps Omar bond or feel more part of this whole pregnancy experience a little more. He can't feel the Baby the way I do but at least now he was able to see him.

Anyway if anyones interested in getting the 3-d ultrasound let me know i have coupons lol.

I'm very excited because today I made an appointment to get a 3-d ultrasound. I can't wait to see what my baby's going to look like.

I'm also in extreme pain because Jr. has decided to try out the comfiness of my ribs. I was always told it would hurt but geez it's horrible. I have to do something about it before I end up crying. Maybe next time I can write more later.

Parents always tell you that having a child changes your life. It's not about you anymore but about your baby. They tell you that now your life consists of loving them and doing everything possible to make sure they have everything they need. Parents also tell you how much you will worry about where your child is, who they are with, what they are doing, where they are going, and if they are safe. They also say that until you are a parent yourself you won't be able to understand what it feels like.

What I didn't realize was that the loving, providing, and worrying starts the moment you understand the fact that you are about to be that parent. The parent that is going to cry when she has to leave her baby for the first time because she has to go back to work, the parent that is going to freak out when her baby falls, the parent who will stay up all night wondering how her baby's first night away is going.

It hit me the other night when I had what was probably the most horrible dream I've ever had in my life. That dream made me realize how real all of this is. It was the type of dream from which you wake up so emotional that you pray to God to make sure his blessings come your way and that you have to hold your tears back and keep reminding yourself that it was all a dream.. or in this case a nightmare.

This is the feeling that brings on the anxiety, nervousness, and just that all around Oh Sh*t I'm having a Baby!! feeling.

You know what though.. it's a great feeling..

Let's just hope that dream isn't recurring lol.

I have a feeling that Jr. is running out of room in there because these past two days he's been kicking me nonstop.. well not really nonstop but i guess when he's not kicking he's sleeping..

You know what is the weirdest thing I've ever felt? The other day I was laying in bed and I swear I felt Jr. stretching and I felt his whole body from one side of my belly to another. It was weird and wonderful at the same time. At one point last week he must have decided to sleep real close to me because on the left front side of my stomach was a knot.. maybe like 2 inches in diameter.. my stomach looked all lopsided lol.. Omar had to massage him so he could move a little.

Nana last weekend did the cutest thing.. We are always telling her that there's a baby in my belly.. but I didn't think she really understood.. I mean she knows what a baby is because she always says "baby!" when she sees one.. But I guess now she's understanding because she came up to me touched my stomach and said "baby" and then walked away and went back to playing with her cousins. I want the kids to have a good relationship that's why I hope she is starting to understand that way when the baby is here she won't have such a hard time accepting him. I know jealousy is common among siblings.. I just don't want it to get in the way of their relationship.

Feeling all of this movement has started me thinking about how big he's gonna get.. how big I'm gonna get.. it's so weird even after 25 weeks how amazing all of this is.

This really is the beginning of the rest of my life. It's not just about me anymore.. it's not just about me and Omar and the girls.. but it's about Jr. too. It's overwhelming...

Omar has decided that its about time to start planning for our baby shower. It's exciting because we get to register for all this new baby stuff. lol. I'm not expecting to get all of it.. I know times are tough but it's still nice to pick it all out.

Anyway lately I find myself looking up all types of information on babies and safety, breastfeeding, bonding, siblings,.. gosh there's so much to learn. Can you imagine how much it has to suck for someone who hasn't really had any experience with a baby?? They'd go crazy with information overload.

So a word of advice --> spend time with kids of all ages before you think of engaging in activities that can lead to a positive sign after you pee on a stick lol.

As forBaby and me.. we just keep growing. lol. They say that by this time the baby should be about 13 inches long and weigh 1 and a half pounds. I don't think my stomach is that big yet though.. that would explain why Jr. can kick me on both my left and right sides at the same time. It's pretty funny actually. Lately he has taken to kicking for hours as fun as it is sometimes not being able to breathe doesn't feel so great. lol.

One thing that really is not great is that I can't sleep on my stomach anymore and pretty soon I won't be able to sleep on my back. The good thing is that our bed is extremely comfortable.. I love it :)

Well since Jr. is kicking up a storm let's go see what else we can register for lol.

It is now 2009 and that means we have a whole year of laughs, tears, love, lies, family, friends, work, memories and whatever else decides to come your way. In my case I will be giving birth to a beautiful baby boy.

I'm 24 weeks or 6 months now. Jr. loves kicking, stretching, and moving all the time. I don't mind it although I'm not going to lie.. sometimes it hurts lol. The closer it gets to April the more anxious, excited, and nervous I get. I can't wait lol. I know I say that alot and sometimes I tell him to take his time but sometimes I just want the time to come just so that I can hold him in my arms instead of my belly lol.

Looking back on 2008 I have good and bad memories but I guess that's the case for everyone. Here's a good new year's resolution.. Try to make more happy memories than sad ones. That might be easier said than done but there will be 365 days for you to try.

Anyway... Live life to the fullest and don't regret a second of it because that regret you might have to live with for the rest of your life. Love yourself and those close to you. God Bless!!